Losing Confidence

 

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During the month of November, I didn’t get very far with my WIP. I’ve been slowly making my way through Story Genius and I’ve accomplished two things:

  1. I’m more confused about my story now.
  2. I’m losing confidence in my writing ability.

I think I’d save myself a lot of heartache if I’d just stop giving into the temptation of reading how-to books on writing. The more I read, the more I over think the process, and the end result is I write less and pile on a mountain of self-doubt in the process.

Writing is hard and I’m making it even harder in my never-ending quest for the perfect “formula” for writing a novel. I need to build my confidence back up, so I’m stepping away from the novel and Story Genius for a couple of weeks.

We each have our own way of doing things. In the years that I’ve been writing, I have figured out that if I don’t write every single day, it’s really hard for me to get back into it. I am a person who needs to write every day. It’s important that I get back into that habit. I’m setting the novel aside so I can work on some short stories instead. The idea of being able to start something that I know will not take me very long to complete will give me the confidence boost I need, take the overwhelm out of the writing process, and help me get back to writing every day.

Camp NaNoWriMo: Day 22

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It’s day 22 in the writing process and I feel like I haven’t gotten a whole lot done.  I’ve put in just under 17 hours so far. In order to reach my goal, I will have to put in 33 hours of work towards my novel over the next nine days.

That is not going to happen.

I’m okay with that, though. I’ve been working steadily on this project, some days longer than others, and I’ve accomplished one important thing: A drive to get the story down on paper.  It’s fresh in my mind ALL the time. Ideas are percolating in my brain and I look forward to every minute that I can devote to writing this story.

Another interesting development is that the original story that I planned is changing. What was going to be a true romance novel, one where the focus is entirely on the hero and heroine’s developing relationship, is no longer the case. I’m more interested in the “heroine’s” story. There will be romance, but that romance is no longer the sole focus of her story, just another part of her journey.

I’m not one of those people who can sit down and just bang out a story. The process is a slow-moving one for me that usually involves plotting for a bit, writing some scenes then realizing that’s not the direction I want to go, then starting all over again. It’s a frustrating way to write, but I’m confident that it will all work itself out in the end.