Hey Everyone! Did you survive the holiday season? Somehow I managed to make it through Christmas and New Year’s unscathed. I’ve spent the past couple of weeks thinking about the things I want to accomplish in 2019.
Writing, of course, is at the top of the list.
In 2018, I managed to write more than I had in past years, but I still feel unaccomplished with respect to where I want to be at this point in my writing life. I’ve flip flopped over what I want to write about, still haven’t found my voice, and haven’t completed too many stories. I’ve been thinking about what’s keeping me from moving forward, and a big part of it has to do with self-doubt and my inability to truly commit to anything. I’ve half-assed my way through life and it’s come time to end that behavior.
Commit is going to be my 2019 word of the year. Instead of wishing, dreaming, and simply saying I want to accomplish something, I am going to commit to putting in the work to achieve my goals. This means major behavioral changes are in order. I’ve done a bit of self-reflection to try and understand what issues are keeping me from getting shit done and I’ve narrowed it down to two things: Distraction and laziness.
These are two of the biggest hindrances in my life, as well as my resistance to stepping out of my comfort zone. My life will never change if I don’t make the effort to overcome these obstacles.
I’ve decided to tackle obvious distractions that get in my way. The internet and social media are problems for me. They’re also part of what creates self-doubt for me. It’s easy to fall into the trap of comparing yourself to others and their perceived successes. You end up feeling bad about yourself and thinking you suck. I do this with the writers I follow online. It’s just not healthy.
A few months ago, I started cutting back on the amount of time I spend on Facebook and I’m glad for it. FB is a huge time suck. Now it’s time I cut back on the rest of my online activity. For the rest of the winter, I’ll be disconnecting from the interwebs so I can concentrate on writing, reading, and a few other personal things I’ve neglected over the years.
It’d be great if I was going to be holed up in the cabin pictured above all winter. Imagine all the writing I’d get done. Instead, I’ll be wintering in the warm South as always, committing to becoming the writer I know I can be.